Confession of a working mom: Riding on two horses at the same time

Seems like another random and incoherent post. But, that is exactly how I felt these days.
Ever imagine if you have to ride two horses at the same time? Your first question might be, why horse? Well, its really similar like straddling over two boats on water while they are floating down a river. But, boat is a “thing” that really really depend on you. What I have to manage is more like a “being” that you can control, but also has its own will and characteristics that are out of my controls. Hence, the horse analogy.
The next question would be, why two? One horse is challenging enough, let alone two. The chance that you get to the finish line sooner is perhaps higher when you only ride one horse. When you ride two horses, you can’t let one horse run faster than the other or you will end up on the ground.
But, how do you ensure that both horses run in the same pace?
The easy way would be to choose one horse and leave the other. Clearly you will have your preference over the two. The one that truly important to you and you just cant live without. In fact, I have my clear priority too. But, it does not mean that I can just leave the other. It is also part of me and I feel a sense of obligation to carry that horse too. Plus, sometimes I think that it’s actually a privilige and even a bless to have both horses. Some people does not even have one.
So, what to do? The best that I can do to balance their pace. I realized that in order to do so, I need the agility to keep dividing my attention between both horses. First making sure that my priority horse is doing well. Then, switch to the second one and snap it so it wont trail too far. It will be tiring and frustrating at time. Most of the time I feel that I am not doing anything right with any of them.
But imagine if I can ride them both to the finish line. Must be twice the glory and happiness.
With that in mind, I hope I have the strength, agility and fortitude to do so.

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